old_plain_me

We keep waiting.
We keep crying.
Tired of that.
Can you give an answer?
Maybe frienship wasn't enough.
Who knows?
I'll keep waiting.
I'll keep crying.
Haha.
Stupid, actually.
Because somehow I believe im stronger than that.
Fuck You.
Fuck your ideas.
Fuck your mind.
You did it with mine.
Everything should end.
Today. Tomorrow.
Soon. Please.
I need it.

Yup. Im listening depressing music.
OH god...
I love it.

Not my best night i must say.
This is quite stupid. Feeling empty the most part of the time. Kinda creepy, well not for me. But the people around me think i need help. I don't need a therapist anymore, thank you very much.
I can deal with my own problems. I guess. Okay, i don't know. But, its more interesting that way. And also, cuz my old therapist was a sweet woman, but she told me what to do and what not. So, i dont fucking like that. I needed help with other things.
Guess i like dealing with my problems. It makes me feel like...powerful. As if i can just be my own voice.
And now, i dont want to hear my voice.
So much for independence.

O-kay.

Yay! Today im happy...well, not happy...proud of myself maybe...or doesn't matter.
I havent smoke in like two weeks! - Happy dance - It's a great deal to me, actually... Im drinking more coffee though...but well...you can win in everything, right?

But at the same time im feeling more and more...like alone... I dont know. Maybe its because i dont want to see my friends. I love them, i really do...but it's i cant be with people who makes me feel like if im crazy or something... Like, the other day, i went to drink mate with my closest friends, (friends day) and i was wearing my green day t-shirt, my black pants with a red belt. Normal. But they told me "Why you dress like that?" or "Don't wear pink shadow" or "You know? You look too aggressive with you lip ring" WTF! Come on! o_0 Are you talking for real!?
Well fuck you then! I just cant believe that there's people (my friends.) that actually believes in all that crap...I mean...it doesn't matter how you dress, right?
But, damn! My friends? Are the best when it comes to listen and just...be there...but when it comes to be themselves...they can be real assholes...! They always do what their parents want...! Why? I dont fucking know...dont get me wrong, i know some parents can be really...well...idiots. But that's not a reason for them to choose every step you're gonna take...

Okay...i dont even know if im writing this well...but hell! I just needed to...you know...

Okay im leaving

Roms! ^^

Hello...como estan?

Yeah, Argentina lost...damn! It was the most amazing match I've ever...yeah you know, a week ago, bla bla bla...It wasn't fair! That's all Im gonna say.

Well, Im sooooo excited! We have the tickets to go to Buenos Aires to see my lovely bandmate Luciana! YAY! Sooooo coool! Im happy. Besides, my family is okay with the fact i dont want to go to college right now...I can't find something that calls my attention. You know? Like...I dont want study some career that doesn't makes me feel...full...or complete. The only thing that I LOVE is MUSIC...but in my small town, you dont have that possibility so yeah...its quite fucked up.

But! Someday...

Well...im leaving cuz i need my beauty sleep. Hehe... ^^

Bye!

OH GOSH...!
Im still thinking about the game...6 goals...amazing...Im sorry im a football addict...hell yeah! Go TEAM! You know, we can be the most arrogant, selfish, cocky bastards you'll ever know, argentinian people, i mean...but we can play fucking good...
Sorry...^^, but I can't stop seeing in my head those amazing men running, all sweaty, touching each others, and playing great, of course...hehe...
Well, today was a happy day...I guess everyone in here, I mean everyone in here, really, watched the game; screamed; and cried. Cuz, we are really emotional when it comes to this kind of stuff. Yeah, sappy; in some bizarre way; I swear I couldn't help but cry, when the fourth goal came...I was jumping all over the house, dancing and screaming...quite stupid now I think about it, ^^ BUT IT'S THE WORLD'S CUP!!!! And it's fucking amazing watch so many good teams, playing only cuz for the flag. It's not important if on the field theres 10 people cheering; they play with their hearts. And thats the only thing that matters. At least for me...
Yeah, I know im too pathetic; talking about this like...i dont know...but at least in here, helps people; you know? Somehow you feel happiness, even when the things are falling apart, you feel proud. And that's freaking good...Cuz at least, in my case, i dont feel too proud of being argentinian, when you know the politics just try to save their asses...only worrying about stupid things; like keep stealing money to the people...sad but true. That's why we hold so much to football, it makes us happy. It makes us believe maybe something isn't that fucked up...

Okay...im leaving...
too tired...
woke up to fucking early, the things I do for you guys, but thanks for make me happy today! ^^

Okay...

Bye!

Yup...i cant sleep...too much coffee. Blame my sister!

Toy con muchas ideas en la cabeza, demasiadas, y tal vez nadie entienda una mierda de lo que escribo...cool...o no...todavia no lo decidi.

Im angry. Sooo angry. Today, i was writing some shit, and trying to get at least one fucking riff okay...nothing worked out...! :P
Im too impatient...and my phone doesn't work...well that doesn't bother me at all...kind of relax me...No ring...oh dulce tranquilidad...

La musica me esta volviendo completamente loca, pero sigo recibiendo esas criticas de mierda, que unicamente me hacen los frustrados que no hacen nada por si mismos, sino todo para complacer al resto...

Yup, to every fucker who cant think by himself... FUCK OFF!
Im doing what I love...music is something too fucking important, can't live without her...it's one of the things that help me to go on... If you are doing something you dont want, 'cuz you dont have the guts to be real with yourself, don't insult me, don't try to make me feel worthless...please.

No me importa que hagan, pero sean reales con Ustedes mismos, por favor, no jodan a las personas que aunque estamos a la deriva, estamos peleando por lo que nos gusta con todos...

So...Im going, maybe I can sleep now...or maybe not, who knows? ^^

Byes!

Besos...!

Romy

Dios...fue un dia de mierda...
JA, todavia nose para que carajo me hice un Live Journal, pero no importa...que se yo curiosidad, tal vez...ganas de escribir en parte...o simplemente nada...
Me siento mal! Mi cabeza ta por explotar en todo momento, y escribir en ingles...toy muy cansada...sory...^^
Y ahora esta sonando "tira para arriba" de Miguel Mateos, demonios! Hey! Es recomendable, pero no tengo ganas de escucharlo, tal vez ponga a Panic! At the disco...o espero a que pasen a Cabezones...! Im so fucking confused!
jeje...de a poco tal vez el ingles va saliendo...quien sabe...

OY! :p I cant even think of something to say...im too fucking ill...and im boring, and im fucked up. Yay! At least I have mi guitar here, finally! It's blue and beatiful! Doesn't have a name yet...Im thinking...gimme more time...and maybe, just maybe I'll think in one...

Okay...Im going to see, anything actually...

Bye!